oh god. i knew i shouldn't have snooped last night.

i need to study lahhhh. but not with a troubled mind.

see. now you make me think of the "what ifs". i can't help but think of ways to bring us closer again. to forgive and forget. to start anew. to sense that used-to-be strong bond between us. why now? i've no willingness to do anything about this. maybe all this while i've been trying to run away from these emotions. but apparently, i failed. they come crawling back to me. And if i'm weak, they'll start gnawing me into bits of pieces again.

oh god. please help me.

sorry if i've been too cruel. sorry for being unreasonable. but sometimes you must understand me too. try for once to put yourself in my shoes and see things from a different angle.

sorry if i turned my back when you need me. i'm really clueless cos i really don't know how you feel. because we weren't like before. that's why. so why not we start all over again?