waaaa. been a long time uh. these days i've been full of angst. probably misery too. and no, it's not the time of the month.

i worry alot. i worry when i begin to use this computer[to hell with it], when i don't finish up my work, when i'm unusually quiet, when i'm sleepy but just can't sleep, when i don't know the latest gossips my friends know but i don't, honestly almost every little things. my heart has been wrapped with insecurity and fear since a few days ago, nonetheless i did nothing about it. especially nowadays. the beats of rain played the tune of my melancholy state. at least the nature truly understands me.

if you ask me, that's my life outside school.

you ask me again, "what's wrong?". i can't even use a word to describe it. it's exceptionally vague, even i myself can't understand me.

and my life in school, oh wells. yesterday we gobbled down chicken rice and indian rojak from the hawker centre situated nearby to our school. it was ultimately uncanny to hear the "let's eat chicken rice!" from hana. no more kfcs uh? *sneers*

ehs, i think i like livejournal. it's cool. cooler than blogger. try it.

mr aw has been real interesting this year. i don't know what's gotten into him but anyways, he succeeded in tickling the heck out of me when no one else in the room is laughing, maybe at the most, just a few of sympathetic grins. lame guy.

after typing up till now, i realise that i've not settled down yet. emotionally settled that is. i'm longing for solace. and like daphne loves derby sings,

i want to be, somewhere i can see the roads
a place where everytime i breathe, a wish comes true

you dream alot uh. snap outta it.

yikes. gotta run. had to attend some function. ciaos.

maybe later.