i thought i can't live without him. i thought he's the only one that kills my unbearable boredom. i thought he's my only source of happiness, the one that keeps me smiling.. my soft, affectionate touch will land on him for a long time, unable to repel, .. oh, i can't let go..

but i was wrong! *slaps my forehead*

i can actually live without my computer, whilst it's out there getting repaired. =)) what do you think i'm babbling about anyway?

ugh. stop being a drama queen. -_-"

and yes!! i'm BACK!!!

so yeah, finally, i'm updating my blog. i've missed blogging a great deal. and it's always been like this when i seriously need to blog to pen down my ever unsettled thoughts, but my com just isn't here. and when i don't really need to blog[that's when all the craps came about here], my computer was right here, waiting for some kind soul to touch its keyboard.

nevertheless, i'm still unhappy. who in the world would be happy with a computer that doesn't produce any sound at all? and.. ALL MY FILES ARE GONE! my pictures, my designs that i put in so effingly-much effort in, my MUSIC! my music!!!...........

within this a week and a half, lots had been happening. i've gotten back my report card for term 1. hah! like expected, i failed physics. i miss volleyball over and over again each time i passed by the court. i'm longing to touch a volleyball and continue being a part of the team again. it has become a part of my life. it's kinda weird to just realise that now. a rather upsetting news about Ms Ng leaving us for some sports council too make me appreciate everything she's done for meus.

the one week holiday flew very quickly, faster than i thought it would be. and guess what? i've been sleeping 24/7. well of course not literally. but it seemed that way. i've been getting pretty disjointed and disgusting dreams. *snorts* and just last night, i remembered Mr Sanath, this avid speaker that teaches us public speaking skills. have you ever waken up after a long sleep, but still feeling tired? well, he said that your mind isn't resting. and i can totally agree on that because i've been having those sleeps for umpteen times already. i'll either wake up in the middle of the night and end up scratching here and there, or not sleep at all because there are seemingly millions of thoughts running through my head at that time. so yeah, uncle Sanath said that before one goes to bed, he should inhale deeply and let go slowly. that way, it keeps you calm and at rest before having your beauty sleep. try it. it'll help =)

school's pretty fine lately. if you ask me, i'd say that i'm still in the holiday mood[unfortunately]. i can't really say much about school. nothing interesting. boring..

my life? still boring. *chuckles*

i'm gonna stop here. i can't stand the silence. it's kinda weird to read my blog without music.

next time!