it's not easy when you are committed to what felt like everything that'll make you feel like burying in bed all your life. it's not easy when voices one by one came to your head in the middle of a long distance run, asking you to stop and give up. it's not easy when you want to perfect everything in every possible way, racing against the time. it's not easy to sacrifice your only few hours of sleep just for school. it's not easy when you feel like you're being left alone, holding on to this on your own. it's not easy when you feel that you miss your friends and stuffs kept you too busy you can't meet up with them. it's not easy.

to Syiqin, i miss you THIS MUCH. remember to fill me in about your life ok!! we'll go out someday, singing dreaming of you with the i cried in the kereta and we'll laugh our asses of at cute ducks that walks terkedek-kedek, queueing one by one behind the mama duck. we'll visit the library often and hang around at the YOU section and then i'll hear your touching and original love story. -winks-

to Mazlina, i hope you're feeling well soon! i really MISS your company these days. it's like damn, i can't pour my crappiness and merepek-ness to someone. come back soon! arrgh. 2 weeks is like.. damn! p.s:let's go to west coast soon with your cute red lil pox-es. hehe.

it's nice having the whole team supporting me and giving me confidence to go through the match. =)