so monday's paper is physics paper 1. gotta mug hard. i know it consists of MCQ questions. but i need the marks badly.
today is the beginning of ramadhan. feels happy. hari raya is coming and yea, i remembered many incidents during this period of time sometime in my past.
last year, i was estranged to somewhat my close guyfriend, and in the end, he turned out to be a jerk. i wrote a story, a love story, in fact to relate with that incident. actually, it's supposed to be the secondary 3, english holiday assignment which we had to write about a song which reminds me of something bad. i still couldn't believe i wrote that story in remembrance of it. tsk-tsk. even my hari raya was affected because of some incident, but heck, i had fun anyways. *winks*
i remembered sitting on a bus ride with syiqin. i was heartbroken. and she's there to say "dalah tu, jgn pekeran" thanks sis. we went to lot 1 before that cos she needs to go to the postbank. =) on my way home, i saw ms nor and talked to her and all that. i then knew that she had a huge family. wah. *raise eyebrows* reproduction, fuuyoooo! and guess what? when i reached home, i talked to that guy and we kinda solved our little disputes. *sigh* i remembered getting pissed at kiki for confronting him. gosh, forget it sakinah.
in the mid ramadhan, i went to johor with my parents, my aunt, my grams and my cousin. the song "here in my heart" kept playing in my head throughout the day. couldn't stop thinking about him. couldn't help asking, "why must he do this to me?", "why can't he just be straightforward and tell me before i finally know the truth?". perr jerr. [and of all the people, karmede told me the truth.] so yea, back on the story, my mind was seemingly disturbed by that. i can't even enjoy the day with my cousin. went to buy ramli burger. my gram bought for me hari raya cards, thanks! and guess what i do when i reached home? i dashed to my computer and replied him with an email. that was the don't-want-to-let-go-and-forget-you me. i was daft to have believed his words: "i regret about something" piece of crap. you liar!
i had break fasts with two of my closest and somewhat childhood friends, murni and shakirah. we ate at each other's houses and there's one makcik who said "wah nie semuer anak aziz." ahakz! lame.
on the last day of ramadhan. ok people, this is pathetic. but we volleyball girls still hafta attend the friggin' tournament and we lost as usual. hajar was like "besok hari rayerrr!". ugh. i totally have no spirit at that point in time. but we sang hari raya songs in the end. =) ais, rabia and hui li accompanied me to geylang. i know, i know. we're out of our mind. going to geylang when tomorrow's hari raya was a weird thing to do. but we went cos i hafta buy a last minute baju. so me and rabia went home and it was already around 7 when we were at the bus-stop outside the interchange. she said "besok hari rayerrr". *lol* was excited of course, but the feeling was just so different when we hafta go and play volleyball on that day.
so much for last year.
i had always slept over my aunt's during puasa during my pre-teen years. the memories are still fresh in my mind. me and my cousin playing tennis in the house, perspiring and panting madly *giggles* and we spend our afternoon watching hindu actors and actresses dancing crazily in the rain, and we used to laugh at them. immatures. and sometime during the 3rd week of ramadhan, i helped my aunt bake cookies and throughout the whole thing, i simply had so much fun and laughter. i can still remember kissing my cousin(the other one) cos i missed him so badly! and at night, me and my cousin continued watching hindu movies and there's this particular time the music went playing over and over again! and guess what? at that point in time, we were snoring as loudly as ever. sheesh, of course the next day we got scolded for that.
me and my cousin really loved westlife at that time, so we watched the videos that i taped over and over again. i can still picture everything. me and my cousin's family watching "jeritan sepi". we went to the library to search for books and i stacked up the whole load of them! of course in the end, i only had to borrow four. =) we went to the ramadhan bazaar at causeway point and bought food for ourselves. my aunt is one kind lady. miss her. miss the whole family in fact. i wanna hug asad again. i wanna play with my cousins. miss my childhood life.
and not forgetting school during the fasting month. me, isaac, mc and fad used to go to school during the december holidays to copy homework. oops, that was in 2002 and 2003. now no more. not! *lol* abit of here and there that is. so yea, and i remembered me, mc and celine used to go to westmall, and that time, the christmas tree was there. woa, i remember alot. *shakes head*
and also, i remembered i had to go for volleyball training during the fasting month. the expression of tiresome volleyball girls i can still picture. including me of course. i remembered me and hana sat on the but while we're on the way for the tournament. i pass the time by reading "i am david" while listening to the radio. oh speaking of "i am david", i had always spend my fasting month chatting with mick after sahur. and after that, i would play yahoo games. *smiles*
so that's how i got my time pass real quick. oh ye tak yer! helping my mom bake cookies! that's one of my favourit-est thing to do. she was both shocked and proud that i can bake em. *rolls eyes*
woa, so much for the fasting month. did i mention my stomach is grumbling? fuuyoooo, imma gonna break fast in a few minutes time. so yea, gotta out help my mom right now. thanks for reading the long entry. i shouldn't ramble on and on like that everyday. i will bore people to death![tau pon!].
orytes. take care all.
P.S: couldn't wait to shop for hari raya clothes!
love
sakinah
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